All the things and people you knew and trusted are gone. You cannot trust your own judgement, Your judgement or lack of it got you where you are now. You know you will never trust anyone or anything again.because you intend to lock yourself in a small room and never open the door again.
You don't know what to do...should you say something, tell the police, tell your biggest male friend to kill the motherf-----, or just forget about it. CAN you forget about it? Probably not.
No matter what else, find someone to talk to that is trustworthy. Your best friend, a family member, or go to a trauma center. If you can, you need to go to the hospital, or the rape treatment center, or your doctor. Don't do it alone; bring someone with you that is on your side and can support you. Do This If At All Possible, do it before you take a shower even if you may not involve the police. This is the evidence that proves your attack and if you are going to prosecute or not or even try to identify someone to pay child support or terminate their parental rights, you need this. It is not fun, and I am not going to lie, it's in fact traumatic, but it is vital.
You need to talk to the police and tell them what happened. Sadly, in most states the states get to decide if they are going to prosecute the case. It is not like you dealing with a theft or an assault. If you want to prosecute them you can prosecute. Not the same as prosecuting a rape. You don't get to make the choice. when it is a rape The state attorneys decide whether or not they have enough evidence to have a good possibility of winning.
Just as important, find a therapist. Even if you think you don't need to talk to one, you will. Find someone you can relate to, feel comfortable with and go. Maybe you won't do it right away, or maybe you will feel the need to do it as soon as the assault happens. Whatever works for you, you need to process the attack. If you go to court, you need someone to talk to during that process, as well.
Learn to ask for help, get some help, you will need it. I am an example of the positive outcome. I came out on the other side and I prove there is life after sexual abuse. I was lucky to have friends and a therapist when I needed them. Reach out and get the help you need.
Carolyn has been providing therapy for clients for 30+ years and although she has worked with all kinds of clients in all kinds of environments, her passion continues to be providing services for clients who have dealt with sexual abuse issues and trauma. She currently provides all types of therapeutic support for victims of sexual abuse assault rape and incest. Serving Ft. Lauderdale, Palm Beach, and Miami area
Carolyn Wilson, M.S.W., L.C.S.W.
Personal Solutions 954-793-3201
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